Yesterday I had an early appointment at the hospital to see a specialist. I had to be there at 8am so I headed out at 7am. There was morning traffic chaos and the hospital was rammed with people.
The health care system is totally different here and most of the times it makes no sense to me, so I have to deal with unnecessary line ups and check ins and long long waits. The doctors show up when ever they want and sometimes not show up at all, so its a little frustrating if you have take the day off work or had to travel a long way only to have to come back at another time.
I sat in the a waiting area that sat about 100 people. There where kids screaming and crying, people running up and down the hallways and tons of other chaos surrounding me… One year ago, I wouldn’t have even made the trip to the hospital. Not for a second.
This time around it wasn’t that bad. Actually I didn’t even realize what was going on around me until I left, got in the cab and started thinking about what I had just accomplished.
Agoraphobia had a tight grip around my throat for a very long time. I never ever thought that I would ever get over it. It just seemed so far fetched. I cant believe that I am able to sit through something as simple as a waiting room with out feeling the horrifying symptoms of agoraphobia.
Just another amazing milestone in my journey to become a healthier me <3 with ZERO medications.